My Rose Is Red.

wearing: light jeans, black and white funkadelick shirt, sneakers
eating: doritos
listening to: Greenwheel, "Breathe" - this is the song that goes "And I can't ask for things to be still again, I can't ask for you to offer the world through your eyes... longing for home again, but home is a feeling I buried in you" and it's actually quite the decent song if you ignore that chick going and butchering it.

Speaking of butchering things, I just went and took care of those Nazi hedges that were overpowering my delicate little rose! I'm sure The Mother will want to have my head for it, but I couldn't stand the thought of my baby being tormented by that big bully any longer. Last week it was nice and dead-looking, but I cut away the dead stuff so now it can grow again. I love my plant.

Now that everybody is nice and bored...

Oh! Guess what I'm doing tonight! ...Gypsy cards! Yay for sinning! I'm not too keen on the tarot cards right now because if I recall correctly, the last time I did them in December or whenever, they told me I'd have 'a severing of ties' in the month of May. ...Damn them...
They said alot of other stuff too, but you know when you're having an argument with somebody that you think is stupid, and they turn out to be right, and then in your humiliation you sort of just don't talk to them for awhile? Well, that's where I'm at with the tarot cards.

I'll continue this at a later date (well, not really a later date because I'll only be gone for a couple of hours) because I have a hair appointment.

Toodles.

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Okay, I'm back and it is now 5:55!

Some good news: I didn't cry yesterday, and not yet today either! Everything seems to be normal, yet at the same time very strange. Today Mikey was pestering me to no end in english class... I like talking to him, but not in a classroom full of ever-attentive ears. He likes to "read" me... which at times is a bit creepy, lol, but he keeps telling me that I have to move on, etc. It's like 'thanks! Now that I have your permission, I'll get right on that!!' For the most part I'm adjusting, but whether I choose to acknowlege it or not, some part of me is stuck. Part of me, more than anything in the world, just wants 'us' to be together... but the rest of me, thanks to The Maestro's position on the matter, knows that isn't going to happen. The only way that could ever happen is if he learns to know his feelings and how to deal with them and express himself, because honestly, the guy doesn't have a clue. I know he'll come around eventually, but eventually holds no promises.
Today I saw him at lunch. At first, I didn't want to go with him because for all of english class I was dwelling on the state of our relationship, and I was feeling 'weird'. Which is understandable, because I've only had six days, so of course we're going to be edgy around one another. We were going to go to sugar benders, but I got sick of him taking his sweet time with everyone in the aud, so I left him to go get lunch at the caf. Soon I caught up with him, The Sneek, and 'Morpheus' at the candy store, and I was standing right behind him and heard him say "...I have to go find Anneliese because she's gone missing..." - Ah, perfect timing!
Well then... that proves I'm not an afterthought, but then again I did have his money. In any case though, hearing him say that softened me up, and we spent the rest of lunchtime in each other's company just like we used to. I miss that.

Now, how about those gypsy cards!

xoxo