Would You Like Some Freshly Cracked Pepper on That Wound, or Just The Salt?

wearing: redstar sweater, pinstripe jeans, sneakers
eating: nothing.
listening to: 'Adam's Song' by Blink182

You know what I find ironic? On my canoe trip, whenever I was having a hard time I'd think about The Maestro to get strength. Seriously. Even before I left, too. When I did the swim test, thoroughly convinced that I'd sink like a rock, I just said 'do it for [The Maestro]' and I did it. On my portage when I was in so much physical pain, I imagined him at the end of it, and I made it. When I got lost on the rocky shore of Wreck Island, weary, dehydrated, and wanting to give up, I knew he would have just told me to keep going, and so on I went. When I was faced with a challenge out there, he is where I found my strength.

And it was my canoe trip that initiated the turn of events that lead us to where we are now.

Ironic.






...It aggravates me to know that while he was going through the emotional turmoil that I'm stuck in now, he completely shut me out. If he'd have just told me when he first became confused, I could have helped him, and perhaps both of us could have avoided this... whatever 'this' is. But he didn't, and now that I'm in pain I have to see him running around like he's totally unfazed. It even looks as though he's replacing me, though he's told me straight to my face that that's not the case. There's a new girl he's spending time with at lunch. Now, the fact that she's a girl isn't what bothers me, because I've never ever had jealousy problems with Spunki - and she's spent tons of time with him. It's the fact that she's the new girl that irritates me... I like her and everything, but when I see her with The Maestro, it's like 'hihi2u, now get the hell out of my spot!!!'

Christ, I hate being a teenager... who's idea was it to invent hormones, anyways? Because I'd like to kick their ass!

Ta Da